Unwritten

I like that song lately, because to me, it speaks of controlling your own destiny, and taking chances. I like that.

So I've completed Bar #2. All I can do is wait and hope that what I did was enough to pass. Oh yeah, and applications for bar #3 are due this coming week. Crap. Does it never end? This week, I've felt like putting off the Utah bar again, because I am just feeling SO tired and worn out. But at the same time, I know it would be better to get it all over and done with, so I'll do what i can to get it done.

One of the best things about being done with studying for a while is having time to exercise and work out again. I know I shouldn't have let it go for so long, but I was seriously worn thin, and I had to let go of something. That was the easiest. Now it's time to jump back in line and get in shape. Monday 6am, I'm all about hitting the pool for a nice 1 hour swim. YAY! I don't think I've ever been so excited to wear out my body with exercise! I've noticed the muscles starting to sag, and give way to the jiggly stuff I don't like to speak of---let alone see on my thighs and belly. It's time to crack the whip on my butt and get moving! Besides, I miss the endorphins making me happy. It's exhausting trying to stay happy without them.

This week I'm going for at least 5 workouts, hopefully more, including a long run on saturday. I've got 4 weeks until my first triathlon, and I need to at least be able to finish! Noreen's gonna kick my butt if she competes. But, she always does, so it's ok. I'm ok with having my butt kicked by her.

What's been nice is the weather lately. We've had beautiful warm weather, nice enough to handle outdoor workouts, so I'm excited about that! Another thing I have to get in this week is a trip to the temple. It's been like 2 months now, and it's been way too long. Like exercise, this is one of the things I "let go" when I tried to focus on studying. Yeah, I know, I think I let go of the wrong things, but hey, you live and learn right?

No new pictures lately, 'cause I haven't taken any pictures in to get developed. I haven't broken down and bought a new digital camera yet, though I really need to just do it. My kids are growing like weeds, and though I take regular pictures, there are several things I've missed because I haven't had film or batteries or something lame like that. Time for me to suck it up and catch up with technology.

I love my girls. It's been a great end of the week for us, even though I've been extra tired and a bit worn out. When I asked them if they wanted to go do anything, they all said no, they'd rather just stay home and play. They like being home. I like having them home. Believe it or not, it's been nearly a year since "he" left and took them away. It feels like yesterday, but also like a lifetime ago. I was a completely different person then, and my life was headed in a completely different direction. It's weird. I like my life now. Much more than I did a year ago. I'm grateful for the detours it's taken, even though it hasn't been easy at all. I can't even imagine the changes that await us in this coming year. I know things can only continue to get better...they were so bad for so long. I'm getting to where I look forward to unexpected changes and adventures. So far, all of them have been pretty good.**

**ok, ok, I admit, I wear rose-colored glasses most days, but I like staying optimistic and positive. I can't imagine trying to get through some of this crap with a dark, depressed attitude. It would seem way too overwhelming.

Life is good.